“I had what’s called a microtia, which is basically not having an ear,” he told Rather. “I wasn’t very socially adept, and when you have something physical that sets you apart from people, it makes you the target of unrelenting scrutiny and sometimes ridicule.”
The musician said his success with Kiss and subsequent rise to fame was “a way to push it in people’s faces and say, ‘You see, you should have been nice to me!'” Ultimately, he found that being famous didn’t solve all of his problems or change anything.
“At that point in your life when you become famous it’s either a disappointment because it’s not a remedy, and you either put a needle in your arm, a gun in your mouth or you live life as a victim, and I’m not cut out for that,” he said.
This realization led him to turn to “self-exploration” and working becoming a better person.
“I was blessed to be a part of an idea to become the band we never saw, and that led me on a course that I’m still on today. Where it’s taking me, God only knows,” he told Rather.